Wednesday, March 04, 2009

To the moon and back

 I am sleepy in office again. It's not new anymore. Yesterday night was spent mostly cursing work and office. And of course the fussy, confused, self-sacrificing colleague I've been working with. I need a break like a certain colleague who suddenly decided to take a week off smack in the middle of the busy season (also quit a coupla weeks later). (People refuse to believe that a financial firm could have a busy season. It does, believe me. There are many kinds of financial firms.) I woke up and began to cry. Like a 6 year old who does not want to go to school. There has to be a limit to how much you can drain people. I feel like my brain's running a permanent leak. Immu said yesterday, after I saw her overslept-face, 'Don't you feel jealous that I sleep so much and you don't?' And for a second I couldn't think of anything to say. I've been out of that mode for so long that it feels like I was never there.

Had a nice PAX weekend. Despite work, there are things to be happy about. Shiny, glowy, light-your-face-up-in-the-dark type things. Am I making sense? I'm not trying too hard. I feel like I'm jumping from one end of a see-saw to another. One side where I'm raging, face scrunched up and going 'WHAT!' and another where I can scarcely get the 'Whaaaat' it out of my mouth because my lower jaw's trailing the floor. 

I think I'll leave it at that. 


4 comments:

Appy said...

Keep yourself free saturday and sunday.

Sudha said...

I'm sorry you're feeling so drained, dear. :/ You really should take a few days off, then, if you feel this crappy about getting up and going to work everyday. *provokes*

Ah, the previous comment reminds me: it's been such a long time since we've met up! =(

Sophist said...

Sounds rather like people refusing to believe that Wealth Managers do little else than read Page 3 line-by-line and simpering before the rich and the obnoxious. :)

Argentyne said...

Sudha, provoke me, provoke me more :/ I know da, we should meet up. I really need it. :|

Sophist, really? I never thought of them that way :)